I was ready to sleep until I felt choke and trying to force me sleep but I need to wake up because I feel like throwing up, that’s how I begin my day today. Also I missed some deadline at the office so I went there today to fix it and back to my bedroom again. Life is full of surprises they say, yeah? 🙂
I’m the process to finding my balance and become the person I wanted to be. People wouldn’t be understand until it happen to them. I read the prediction about my sign (pisces) on #instagram and saying I will get unexpected surprise this week, and yeah more problem hitting my head like I will die tomorrow and I should fix it directly. I tried to take it slow but new problem came and I’m confusing myself and it stays in my head and explode with panic attack. I wish I can get out from it but I don’t even know how to win the competition with myself. My friend was worried when I told her about it and told me to have someone I can call anytime but again I’m not that kind of person rely to someone else if I know the problem can still handle by me. How you gonna deal if you’re in my position?
Maybe I take it too hard to myself and I forgot how it suppose to be or some case I’m afraid to feel happy because sooner I will be upset about something I’m proud about. I’m still figure out my way back to the 23 years ago and you receive all the love you wanted. Life is not that bad but the process will lead me to the person that stronger and braver to take a step forward to her dream life 🙂 I still believe that life is beautiful 🙂